2026年02月12日

 

I called in sick at work today, but don't worry, I'm fine!  I just had a torticolis from improper stretching and thought I could use of some rest + proper medication. So I went to the hospital and they gave me a shot of anti-inflammatory~

I didn't think that my first time using the Suntan Kitty bag would be like this though  I was surprised with how much stuff it can fit! I brought cookies, the flat pouch from the same collection that I use as a card case, keys, earbuds, phone, a box of Band-Aids, lipgloss, pads in a drawstring pouch, pocket mirror, phone...  waaaayyyy more storage than I expected!

After I left the hospital, I went looking for an USB adapter for microSD cards because I thought mine died out (will talk about that later...) and had lunch at Sukiya 

SUPER CUTE deco UV cabins I saw at a beauty supply store!!! I want one!!! 

I ordered a bowl of yakiniku with cheese and strawberry lemonade, but I immediately regretted the cheese part. Almost every time I order something in a "westernized" version, I regret it  I thought the cheese made the sauce tasteless and it felt heavy, overall not very tasty. But I enjoyed the meal anyway and I loved the lemonade, it was very cheap too ~ since my local Sukiya is about 5 minutes from my home, I'll order it all the time now  next time I'll order the OG yakiniku for sure 

So about the USB adapter... Boring talk, but it might help someone out.

Back in 2024, I was playing Lego Batman on my Nintendo DSi and it suddenly crashed and I couldn't get my R4 card to work again (in case you don't know the R4 card is a device to put as many games you wish in your (3)DS for free and it relies heavily in a firmware you download and insert in the root of an micro SD card).

Since I didn't have a computer back then, I left my DS in the drawer and waited for the opportunity to show up. In my first attempts to transfer an updated firmware to the SD card, the Windows kept freezing everytime I tried to plug the adapter in. After some research, I concluded that the issue might be the adapter because it's quite old.

I got the adapter. However, it didn't solve the freezing. I couldn't even format the damn card, but luckily I could save my game gallery and data. That's when I realized that the issue wasn't the adapter – the card died out.  I was so freaking mad that I spent money on the wrong stuff 

So I transfered every data in the micro SD of my Nintendo Switch to the console and formated it to use in the R4 while I don't get a new one. Andddd it worked 

One of the best DS games if you ask me!

I spent the rest of the night playing Style Savvy  But also, I realized that most of the stickers on the inside of my DSi fell off  I'm so sad bc they were ballet-themed from the Happy Meal toy of "Barbie and the Pink Shoes". I had a swan, pointe shoes and two dancing ballerinas... But I'll replace them with Suntan Kitty stickers 

I can take my Nintendo DSi with me wherever I go now once again!!! 

New GET + About the Suntan Kitty-chan collection at Daiso! ☆*:

 

SOOOO, I found one more item from the Suntan Hello Kitty collection at Daiso!  The PVC Tote bag! 

At this point, I own most of the collection... But there are two items that I really wanted and there are no signs of them in any of the stores  The lash case and a little rectangular case...

I already have a Kitty-chan lash case that was released in the late 2010's, but her face was scrapped out of the plastic and it's SO dirty with lash glue because I used it a loooot back in 2022... I already have two cases like the rectangular one too, a classic Hello Kitty one in where I keep lashes and a My Melody one for band-aids that I carry in my everyday bag. But any of them has Ganguro Kitty-chan!

There are these four other items I haven't seen around here yet.. A cotton swab case, nail stickers, mini nail file and a coin purse. But I'm not too concerned about them, so personally, I'm fine if they don't come.  I have the same swab case but with My Melody. The nail file is super cute tho.

Also, I'm still pondering whether if I should get this keychain or not, because I already have a similar one from McDonald's that I got last year when they brought some of the 50th Anniversary prizes to LATAM...

I didn't get the card case too, I already have a Cinnamoroll one for my bus ticket and I'm not sure if I like how it looks like  and I've already told about why I didn't buy the drawstring bag in a previous post ~

This is what I got in the blind packs 

Some of the stickers are missing because I already had put some on the back of my phone ww

I attatched the rubber phone charm to the acrylic charm because I thought it was a bit too big to wear on my phone

The Melo-chan one is from her 50th Anniversary phone charm blind pack, also from Daiso 

I wasn't really happy that I got Dear Daniel in the acrylic charm pack, so I went back to Daiso to get another one, and this time I was lucky to find Kitty-chan with sunglasses, and attatched her to my phone charms  I left Daniel and the rubber charm on the flat pouch ~

There are 6 different acrylic charms to collect and link to each other and now I really want the Mimi-chan one because the yellow hibiscus reminds me of Zara Larsson 

Now I CAN'T WAIT to open the blind box my brother is bringing me! I'll only have it later this month tho 

Thoughts and confessions after 7 years of being gal + my coming out story

 

Last September, I marked 7 years of being gal.

My timeline with gyaru is a bit more complicated than that though. I first heard about it when I was about 13 back in 2011 and immediately fell in love with it (though I wasn't much into the bolder styles as yamanba, but that was mostly my immaturity back then lol). I then got in Facebook groups about gal, made my first blog, downloaded Popteen scans monthly and had Kumicky and Tsubasa as my biggest idols. My first attempts weren't so great. I had a hard time putting on lashes, good and affordable makeup wasn't easily found back then and I had the parents + money factors straying me away from it.

So, for a while, I tried to hate gyaru  I thought that if I convinced myself that I hated it enough, I'd let go of it more easily. It never truly worked out though. Deep inside I always had pure admiration for gals and still loved doing decoden on everything I could. If you read this blog for long enough, then you probably remember that I was a pinup for some time, but I was never truly happy with it. 

Then in 2018 I decided to give it a shot once again, and I will never regret that. I don't think there's anything I love just as I love gal and being gal.  I quit pinup fashion for good in 2021 and dedicated myself to being a full time gal. I got really serious about it. My transition rite was shaving off my brows. 

2022 was my peak as a gal. I could do my makeup everyday unless I decided I did not want to, and therefore I would blog very often. I could experiment and play around until I found out what works best for me. Life was beautiful back then  But then I was fired and a few months later I started working at a place with a very strict dress code.

I won't get in details because a lot happened between 2023 and now. But I'd like to say that, even though my peak was long ago, I'm so grateful for everything I've conquered. Although not a big collection, I have more brand than I could have ever dreamed of. I couldn't ask for a better gyarusa and gal friends. I perfected my makeup in ways I'd never thought it was possible. When someone says I'm a veteran to look up to and go after me for advice... I can't help but think of the 13 year old girl who dreamed of having it all. It was just a dream and look at her now.

However...

I believe that being a gal means always willing to learn and improve. There's always room for that. I don't think I can go anywhere farther with my makeup now, so before I get into my 8th year, I'd like to stop fooling around and get my shit together with...

Hairstyling

I've always had a deep hatred with doing anything with my hair. It's so heavy and thick, it's almost impossible. I try to hide my lack of skills with accessories and a bit of teasing here and there but I truly suck at hairstyling for someone who's almost a decade old gal. It's one of the reasons I quit pinup too! Hair is as important for pinups as makeup is for gal, and I'd get so frustrated with attempting to replicate victory rolls and pin curls. If I wanted Rita Hayworth-like hair, it would take me hours and my mom's help.

I don't like my hair. I only wash it with shampoo and conditioner and SOMETIMES I give it some mask treatment. The frizz is just like Miley Cyrus: can't be tamed. Even wearing wigs is a burden because it's so difficult to hide it under a cap. 

But you know what else was a burden for me 7 years ago? PUTTING ON LASHES.

I didn't want to shave my brows because I was afraid I wouldn't know what do. It took me a long time to master nose contour. So I'm confident that I can fix my hairstyling problem! I'm gonna get s-e-r-i-o-u-s as fuuuuuck about it and surprise myself once again!!! 

I'm not dying it though. I'd destroy it to the point of no return because it is so dark that it doesn't turn blonde just by bleaching once or twice, and when I dyed half of it in red in high school I needed at least two boxes. For half of it. It's harmful and expensive  BUUUUT I'm willing to find a hairdresser who could do colored extensions like these: 

And also get a layered cut, of course! I think that could help me a lot and I'd have gal hair even without a hairstyle!

Now this is about to get very personal, but I really wanted to talk about it...

Last year, I finally came in terms with my sexuality. To be fair, it is still an on going process.

Ever since I was a child, I knew I was attracted to girls. But I've always dreamed of a traditional household, a partner and kids. One of my biggest goals in life is to get married and be a mom. And because I had a boyfriend for 6 years, between high school and my early 20s, and have a few fictional male characters I'm obsessed, I always considered myself a bisexual.

Growing up with the notion that I like girls was far from easy, as my parents, especially my mother, are quite homophobic. I was never repulsed by it, though. I was just concerned that I wouldn't be as happy with a woman, and that the whole process of achieving my dreams would be a lot more difficult. It's not impossible to have a happy married life with kids while being in a sapphic relationship – it's just more challenging and expensive.

When I realized that I do not like men at all, that fangirling over Batman has absolute no impact in my romantic or sexual life, and that I was pushing myself to like them only to have a chance, it was like my whole world fell apart. I know accepting yourself is freeing, but I had to grieve for the person I thought I was. I was never the person I knew for my whole life, and unmasking yourself can be quite a task.

That being said, I'm nowhere near achieving that goal. I'm reaching my 30s and still single with no one in sight, and after all those years of being single, I realized how difficult it is for me to find and date someone. Not for lack of attraction, but because I just SUCK at this social skill, even though I'm a hopeless romantic. So I'm trying to build a life where I can afford being a mother on my own. 

I haven't come out to my parents yet. Maybe I'll never will, if I remain single. It is still difficult for me to fully accept the fact, although not repulsed. This is all very new to me, as I was always the one who was so determined to find a husband who'd bless me with my kids. I'm aware that there are beautiful lesbian households out there though, and I can't help but envy them! 

I frequently doubt myself, if I'd stay true to myself if a man proposed to me and I saw the chance right in front of my nose. It's a lot more convenient, y'know?

Ugh, I'm gonna stop talking because my eyes are tearing up a bit 

Enough talking!!! Too much already 

I'm gonna try sock curls and read a lot of hair tutorials in the magazines... Do the same thing I did for makeup, all over again, but with hair this time! 

I'm excited for my 8th year. I thought that I'd come back to pinup after turning 30, but it seems like it won't happen that way. Maybe after my 40s we