Thoughts on being gal

Yesterday was... Interesting.

I got up too late and rushed to work (I realized I say this a lot but anyways). With "rushed", I mean "I got up ten minutes before the time I should be leaving home". I had my breakfast on my way, Sailor Moon style. I forgot my lashes at home and arrived almost ten minutes after the start of my shift.

Naturally, I was too rushed to do my gal makeup, even at work. And I didn't have my lashes either. So I went for cat eyeliner, sheer eyeshadow and a few coats of mascara.

It was horrendous.

Not the look itself, but I felt like I was in some kind of alien experiment of body swapping.

I've showed my face with normies ass looks before. But as I grew closer to gal and my life began revolving around the lifestyle, it now feels so unnatural to not look gal.

I still feel gal with or without makeup. I won't freak out because people are seeing me bare faced.

I am gal.

But I'm definitely not myself without my gal look! 

I used to think that work and fashion/lifestyle can be two separate things in order to earn the money you need. But now that I'm working at a gal-friendly job and realized how much of my identity is linked to the style, I wouldn't apply to a job that wouldn't admit me as I am.

You either get the full package, or you don't.

Also, there was a time that I didn't really agree that calling yourself a gal isn't as simple as it seems. You have to live the lifestyle as well in order to be a gal (which includes many things other than makeup), and now I totally see that. Veteran gals are completely right!

This concept might be a difficult one to understand when you're a baby gal and I know it sounds like gatekeeping, but it's really not. Gal is a different fashion than lolita, for example, that even though it has its own lifestyle as well, it's expected to not be a lolita everyday (there are exceptions, I know, but definitely most lolitas are no Misako Aoki).

The good news are, there are so many ways to live a legit gal life! You just need to figure out how to live your own!

It felt SO heart-warming to do my gal makeup today, like I had finally returned to my real body.

I could recognize myself in the mirror again!

I was like, yeah, that's me, that's Amyh, the Amyh I know and adore!

Gal is making me explore self-love in a perspective I didn't experience before. It's not about the amount of makeup I wear per se, but the absolute bliss and sense of self it gives me.

I can't wait to stop wearing masks, so I can go ALL IN at last! I wanna nose contour ~ピエン

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